Greg B. and me

greg glassesThis picture is of Greg and me. Greg was my best friend. He passed away on July 28, 2013. I was the last person to see him alive. He was very upset on the previous Friday night I was going to Florida with my family or I would have stayed with him or had him stay with me for that weekend. He had left his cell phone with me for three days and he didn’t even realize it that’s how I knew something was wrong. Plus he had a bruise on his right side, flank area. It was large and alarming. And he told many different stories as to how he got this large bruise. He said his right side hurt unbearably and he wondered why painkillers were not helping. Looking back, I think his kidneys were giving out or maybe his organs in general.

I went to Florida and we were down there for over a week. I kept texting him and he wasn’t texting back and I was wondering why and then I got a phone call that changed my world. Greg had passed away. And that was 2 years ago, over two years ago and I still tear up thinking about it.

I miss him so much….One day the Rolling Stones were on the cover of Rolling Stone magazine. Greg said we had to go see them because Keith was going to die and we wouldn’t ever be able to say we saw the stones together Except that Richards is still banging and Greg…well the memories I have of him are too many but a recent one was Greg walking around with an armful of flowers and the magazine in search of my house.  We had one of those pools that you can take down in the winter and he got all confused because the pool wasn’t in the backyard where he remembered.

I wasn’t home yet so he left the flower and magazine at my door step. That’s the kind of guy he was. Greg wherever you are = I feel you at every turn. I’ve lost too many people too soon during my lifetime but Greg was one who (unlike my dear sweet grandmom who I loved beyond all love, when she passed I was glad she was at peace. She was 83 and ready)

Greg burned.

It burns.

We used to go to together every year in honor of Ed Kelly, who formed this summer time fun, filled with cover bands. “A concert in the backyard, if you will.”

Greg, my sister and I would trek across the street and just chill and watch the bands. I have us on tape. I watch them sometimes and it’s hard to watch. Yet I just miss him so much. He truly believed in me. Believed that TBC will make it. That the little dreamer will live.

RIP Greg – 6/15/1973 – 7/28/2013

This is a blog about writing

And write now I am spending time on TBC. I have started the Bazaar of Bad Dreams- Stephen King has little blurb before each story. I just started reading it – I am already liking it. But I’ve only just begun – I originally wanted to write in this blog every single day and I am trying but I Really got slogged down by arbitration and a tooth pull this week – I have to catch up a little on TBC plus My kids really need me right now…stay tuned..


8 hour arbitration

Well GOD it’s time for you to take over; I did my part. I worked in a field for over 20 years to be terminated for nothing – now the union says I may end up just being their “sacrificial lamb” but if it’s stop them from doing to someone what they did to me then I will. I have to type in my novel, TBC, and also review two items, one a short story the other a poem – how I am still going is amazing because I was up late last night with our new bunny, Sassy, sorry I am slacking on the pictures I just am going through a lot right now. Last year they found something on my mammogram that was abnormal and they said it was just a cyst well this year again, same side the left breast they said it was abnormal again and larger. So Wednesday November 11th I go back. In the meantime,

I will start the new Stephen King Book and go over a few Christmas presents I bought my daughter. Pictures Pictures and more Pictures!!!



rock outfitI have arbitration tomorrow – I have never had to go through anything like this so please pray for me. I am the little guy who got kicked around by the big bad corporate industry – I worked at a hospital for over 7 years and I want to rock my self confidence – I used to ooze it but time and experience has beaten my up a bit = when does it happen – when do you go from your cocky self assured knowing everything you touch is going to turn to gold to being tentative and uncertain. And not so sure of Karma anymore. Was karma invented by people who just lost out on life? Because if Karma is for real I have an awful lot of points available to me. And I need to use them right now.

I’m rambling because I’m nervous but we just got the cutest little bunny – Sassy – she just had surgery so I will take a picture of Sassy when she is in more of a groove- no woman unless she’s just given birth wants her picture fresh out of surgery.

I am exhausted. I don’t know how my mom is handling it- she’s got her hands full right now.

I should lay down I am not even making sense I’m all over the place again, I am just nervous and a bit worried- we had four rabbits – all perfectly healthy and one day after letting out the two “outdoor” rabbits and then opening the cage to the wife and husband rabbits- (Bella and Turtle)  I walked out of the room for a few minutes then walked back in Bella’s eyes were wide open and she was dead. I ran out of the room and yelled to my son “Please don’t tell me she’s dead.”‘ and then my son didn’t say anything and I said “well…-” and he said, “Well, you told me not to tell you if she was dead.”

OK three times I just fell asleep on the keyboard and had to fix this it’s time for me to go to bed – 6:45 is six hours away and it’s been a looong time OK I did it again



Please copy or paste above into your browser- this is for THE WARD it’s a review of the SL GREY book (Sarah Lotz and Louis Greenberg met in a pub while bunking a crime seminar; these are the authors behind ” SL GREY) and I noticed that to buy the Ward now it’s about 24.00 but to get the Downside trilogy The Mall, The Ward, and The New Girl together it’s only 10.00. I strongly recommend getting that. It is one of the weirdest pieces of literature I have ever read. Also there is one other book by SL Grey called The Underground but I don’t think it is part of the downside books; anyway; I could not read it fast enough which is a good sign. There are books where you fall in love with the characters; then there are books that are just interesting and you want to find out what happens. That is the downside. I cared slightly more about the characters in The Mall; The Ward character’s are so shallow and appearance driven it was hard to feel for them but again, I give the book a strong 4.5 stars. It was tighter than the Mall though if I had to pick the better of the two I might go with the Mall I liked the ending better. The Ward almost ended too abruptly for me. I wish it would have been a little longer. This time the two people are Lisa and Farrell, Farrell is a celebrity fashion photographer like a Star magazine TMZ kind of guy while Lisa is just obsessed with plastic surgery; they stumble across and organ harvesting chop shop “Hospital” where they both wake up after each had a different accident. The subsequent story revolves around them trying to get out of the hospital and once they do= at what price must they pay for their freedom. It’s explained somewhat why the two were picked out of all the millions of people in the world and it’s a tad vague some might find contention with that. For me, the story is so good and well written I tend to “suspend disbelief” and enjoy the ride. Life doesn’t make sense so unless it’s completely off the charts I tend to not be picky revolving around the whats and the whys.

Again go to the link above and decide for yourself if this is the kind of book you would like. I cant wait to read The New Girl but I just got the new Stephen King Book in:

and I am reading this – The Bazaar of Bad Dreams – it’s his first short story collection since The Night Shift and I loved the night shift so I am going to read this first, then go to The New Girl – in the meantime – get cracking on the downside! Time for me to go to my writing class!!! My work is being critiqued tonight I will post it tonight or tomorrow it’s called “I’m a believer” I will post soon!! Love

Debbie kisses



Well who has ever been to arbitration? – I will be going on Thursday. I worked in a field for over 20 years with an excellent record- and then then new management came in and they fired me for no reason at all. It’s true. I am very nervous because they took a lot from me – my self esteem- my paycheck- and most important my kids health benefits – they took the food right out of their mouths. It’s a disgrace and I pray and hope that a judge will be able to see right through them after Thursday no matter what the outcome I will be back to my “normal”‘ self right now I am somewhat of a mess. Pray for me Please And I will be back with a vengeance I promise- plus I am almost done the Ward. I ordered Stephen King’s new book The Bazaar of Bad Dreams. So I will review the Ward (S.L. Grey -Downside #2 – I am liking these downside books – kooky freaky weird like me – and then I will start the Bazaar ; the last good Stephen King book I read was 11/22/63  – I didn’t like Mr. Mercedes; the sequal to the shining was ok but I can’t even remember the title so it couldn’t have been that good – I just remember the lady with the hat that preyed on children that was pretty cool. Doctor Sleep was the name of the sequal to the Shining; now come on the Shining was masterful to follow up twenty years later with Doctor Sleep? Eh – come on Stephen!! SCARE US!!! In the meantime – Wink Wink – PRAY FOR ME!!

Old Betsey!!

car going awayOld Betsey lasted many years – about 5 – I got it for 1800.00 from some car shop. It had 80,000 miles on it  – today, leaving,  it had about 150.000 – it NEVER broke down on me. NEVER- only tires went flat. But that’s it.
It was a good running car and got me back and forth to my “corporate job”. I now sit and wonder where I am going – like the car that is on the lift and being driven away – I wonder myself just where I am headed. It’s a scary thing you know – since 1989 I’ve done one particular job and now that job has been eliminated. Nothing I did. Corporate blah blah. I am quite scared I will admit. But I guess as the saying goes. Let go and Let God.